March 21st Blog Challenge: What’s your biggest fear?
I’ll give you two of my biggest fears, ok? I’m an over-sharer like that…
First, my biggest unrealistic and completely ridiculous fear: Clowns.
Yes, those stupid funny all-made-up crazy circus people who make you laugh! Those clowns. I hate them. It all started when Stephen King wrote the book that was later turned into the movie, “It”. Terrified the bejeezus out of me.
But even still, at almost 35 years old, I’m scared to death of clowns. There’s just something creepy about a grown person covering themselves in that much makeup, wearing clothes with noisemakers inside, and doing all sorts of weird stuff for a laugh. I don’t get it. It’s not natural. It’s just plain creepy if you ask me!
Anyway, I digress…
My biggest realistic and totally natural fear: Getting old.
I don’t fear death. I know where I’m going when I die, and I know my loved ones will either be there to greet me or will meet me there later on down the road of life. But I fear getting old.
Not necessarily aging, as in adding candles to my birthday cake. I just don’t want to ever be too old to live my life on my own. I don’t want to be dependent on other people to take care of me – drive me places, bathe me, serve me dinner…. I’m so scared of being useless. I think that’s what it boils down to.
As a wife and a mom, I’m used to being the one who takes care of other people, and being needed. What happens when they don’t need me anymore?
Ok, that’s depressing…. I’m over it.
Are you “skeered”? Share in the comments what makes you afraid.